How did I get here? Here being at the end of my nursing school journey. I've been in college so long it seems, and here I am at the end. My final exam is next week. Pinning is in 16 days, graduation in 17. I can't believe it.
I still remember the excitement of getting my acceptance letter in the mailbox. The anticipation of waiting to start nursing classes. I was so excited to get started, and now, although I am excited to be done, I have mixed feelings about it. Nursing school is what I waited for for so long, what I invested so much time in, and so much money, for that matter. I've laughed, cried, stressed out, and jumped for joy a hundred times over at some point during my schooling. I've taken enough notes to fill a textbook, read enough books and notes to make my eyes cross.
And now its (almost) over.
Yes, I'm happy about that. I am happy to be out in the real world of nursing soon. But, in school someone was always watching over you to make sure you did things right. To make sure you didn't kill anyone. To make sure you really knew everything about that med you were about to give. Annoying, but reassuring, nonetheless. Now I'll be independent, responsible for people's lives! How scary. How really, really exciting and scary.
I'm ready. I'm also a little nervous to leave the security of school behind me.
It sure will be strange not going to class. I've been at my college for years now, and to just not go anymore.....surreal. I'll drive by the school, and out of habit want to turn in the parking lot. But I won't. Not to get online and check my test grades, not to chat with my classmates about test grades, care plans, studying...it will be so different-this has been my life so long and now i'm leaving it behind.
Oh well, I've got one more day to show up at school.